Vulnerability

Julio once told me this art/community shit requires vulnerability.

I always seem to take my brother’s wisdom with me in some way, shape, or form.

There’s an appreciation that comes with being able to deal with issues that you otherwise would’ve shirked at previous stages of your life.

I used to hate my vulnerability, but now… I kinda see it as a power. It’s the connecting factor for me and the world around me. Yes it isn’t always appreciated, yes it is abused at times; but it’s part of who I am, and I can’t just toss that characteristic out the window.

A while back I said that I couldn’t just kick people out my life as I previously did. I couldn’t just ignore anyone who slighted me; this was obviously a coping mechanism that I didn’t see as a problem because it solved an issue short term. But the thing with that is that it never really solves an issue as much as it does throw a blanket over it. Shit’s kinda like sweeping the dust underneath something.

So I shifted it, I started elaborating my issues with people, I started to express my gratitude towards them even if the terms weren’t amazing. And it wasn’t easy, at times it still isn’t; but truthfully, I value everyone in my life too much to not do it. I started showing up for myself, I started showing up for others; and people respected me for it.

It’s actually kinda funny, earlier today someone told me that most peoples issues could be solved with a simple conversation; and I really couldn’t agree more.

There’s no more space for holding onto shit, letting issues fester, or even waiting for the right time to show appreciation to your people. It isn’t always the easiest thing to do but it’s what the human experience is about. Let’s all prop each other up and give each other the support we need to move forward.

And let’s all become more comfortable with trusting others to appreciate our vulnerability.

Davo